So often in my life when things get tough; I am feeling confused, or as if nothing seems to be making sense or going right I find myself wanting to pull away. Pull away from God, from family, and from friends. Just wanting to sink right down in to that deep dark hole, where no one seems to find me or knows what is truly going on inside of me.
Ruth 1:16 says, " Don't urge me to leave you or to turn back from you. Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God my God.
This is what Ruth is saying to Naomi as Naomi is urging her to go back to what is familiar and what feels right. As I read this, I find myself in this story. I find myself hearing God speak to me through all those times when I want to run.
He is saying to me, "Kala, don't run. Hold on. Hold on to me. Hold on to your Faith. Do not turn to what is familiar, turn to Me. I will work this out for good. Don't lose hope. Press forward. Pray. Pray BIG. Pray expecting Me to do the unexpected. Pray expecting Me to change lives and conquer ALL. PRAY."
Does any of this sound familiar to you?
So, instead of urging God to leave in the midst of pain, heartache, and confusion, I push to pray harder and listen more. Seeking Him in all areas and in each direction I walk. I find myself clinging to those around me that He has blessed me with, to hold me accountable and love me despite my imperfections.
It is not easy and it absolutely does not always end the way I would have envisioned, but what I can always HOLD ONTO is that God's plans will always prevail and will always end for His good, His glory, and how He sees fit. All we have to do is truly HOLD tight to Him.
This reading today confirmed to me exactly why I came up with and felt led to blog with the name, "Blessed and Messy." My life is messy. Your life is messy. My life can me hard and complicated, just like everyone Else's lives. But, my friends, we are forever blessed through our pain, our brokenness, and imperfections because of HIM!
~Hold on tight, never losing sight of His promises~
